Adoption

Adoption is something I've been considering for a very long time. Its something I would LOVE to do. But, there are ups and downs to adopting. The experience can be different for everyone. I am attracted to adopting a child that needs a home. I am attracted to sharing my love with a new person whether they are my DNA or not, they are my child. But I worry about the effect of it on the boys, and the child we would adopt.

My husband has been warming up to the idea over the past few years. And now, as we make the decision on what will be our final child I find myself battling between adopted or natural. Will I always yearn for one more pregnancy? Or will I always yearn to have the opportunity to choose my child?

To have more or not to have more...

So when and how do you decide this? As you know I have 2 boys...and I want a big family. But, I'm beginning to feel like two is big! No, really, I want to give them everything I can so do I have more or do I not? The decision doesn't have to be made now I suppose. I can pack away the maternity clothes and the baby clothes as we grow out of them but this is an internal dilemma I've been having for awhile. It almost takes away from my being able to enjoy Maxwell. I need to stop thinking about it and let life happen...right? It's that easy isn't it? :)